the start of losing the "fat fuck" title

Honestly, Iv had the hardest fucking time trying to get on a fast.Alot of shit has happened in my life lately hence me not posting for a while. I moved out of my parents house. YAY! Im in my own two bedroom apt. Its pretty nice not alot of furniture but it will do. So now that ive moved out doing my fast and such should be easier. In a way yea it is. But ive been so fucking bored without my internet that i went to drastic measures (drastic measures meaning the forbidden word "food") So currently I am a fat fuck. :( FML. Anywho, watched a shit load of thinspo videos, thought alot, talked to my bf who again was being a bit of an ass and started planning my thin journey all over again. I think i am doing this partially because i want to prove my bf wrong. I dont think that he thinks i can lose weight i think he thinks ill be a fat bitch forever. I think he thinks he is better looking than me which pisses me the fuck off to no return. He is overweight but thinks hes hot shit and didnt think he was hot shit till i came along filling up his so easily blown up head. (note: I am a fucking idiot for that)And then it his bitch of a friend shes too fucking friendly with him its like she wants to suck his dick. idk but yea im out to beat her weight too. Its like i know im pretty im just stuck in this fucking fat suit. (cries for a moment) Like underneath all of this fat and shit there is a skinny girl somewhere I swear to fucking god.. And the day i find her is the day i will forever be happy. So...... im set out to prove his ass wrong and his bitch of a friend wrong and a whole lot of other bitches who think theryre hot shit just because their skinny (yet still fucking ugly) wrong. Im sick of being a cow too. So, tonight im going around my house and first throwing out all fatty foods. Secondly, Im going to write little notes to myself on sticky notes and stick them to my wall. I wish I had a printer because i would like to put some thinspo pics up but i think i have some magazines. So yea. So i fucked up today and threw everything back up. I was happy afterwards. :) idk what it is about feeling all that nasty ____ leave my body. Its self empowering. So, Im excited about tommorow. I have to work but no food shall touch my lips. I swear. Love you anna forever yours

The first steps to perfection

I woke from a nap and saw my reflection in the mirror. I have such a pretty face I thought but what the fuck is all that fat under my clothes. Disgusting and totally fucking revolting. I havent fasted in a long time and look at where it has taken me. Ha absolutely down the shitter. Summer is around the corner im tired of looking like the fat cow with a tshirt on. I am now striving for perfection. Anna calls my name and i answer yes to thin and not to fat fuck. Who the hell wants to date a fat bitch?? Being totally honest if i was a boy and i had the choice between fat bitch and skinny girl I think i would go for the skinny one. Ha no i dont think i know i would. Lol. lets be honest no one wants to be the fat girl barely fitting into clothes. So here i go on my journey towards perfection care to join me? ANNA's path to perfection is thin & narrow. Forever yours anna-Ellie