DAY 2 I wont stop

Yesterday was super hard. OMG! lol i fucked up n had like 10 tortilla chips. :( anywho I measured how much ketosis i have and its showing a moderate trace. :) im happy about tht. I cant wait to measure what tommorows will be. I cannot wait to reach my goal weight. Im going to be so happy. So far today, ive had jus flavored water. If i stay under <20 carbs with no fat I will not fuck ketosis. cant wait. so far my weight loss should be three lbs. i cant tell what it is until friday. cause thts when i buy my scale. well ill be posting pics soon maybe. Always yours ana/mia

Day ONE of a long awaited beginning

So, after a shit load of planning I finally stop procrastinating. However the fucking summer is almost over. But I cant give up i just cant stand the thought of another summer blowing by and me still looking the way i do. Its always the beginning of a fast that gets me. The first and third day are the hardest. But mostl its the first day. So today im making myself just relax. Im watching some thinspo videos and excercising a little and im going to flat iron my hair and paint m nails. the really shitty thing is my bf has lost weight n im like shit. I dont wanna be the cow in this relationship. So im trying to hurry up n get this weight off. Im hoping to get this weight off before Warpped tour. I want to be the sexy GF with her Sexy bf. Not the fat cow with her skinny bf. ya know. so I swear to God if this is the last thing i do i will be skinny before warped tour which is August 3. Currently i thinnk i weigh um like 210 :( i know terrible. but wtf ever. I wanna get down to lets see um 130. This is possible i know ive seen it done. I just cant eat much of anything. which is fine. bc i want to look bad ass. i wana mae ppls face drop. so im going to post everyday. so i can make myself accountable. Im doing a water fast. I plan on fasting the recommeded 10 days at a time.Today i havent eaten anything. just water and tea with one pacet of splenda. The first 3 days u lose up to 3-4 llbs. so if i loose 3lbs the first three days tht would =9lbs.taking it down to 201. then 71lbs to go. there are 31 days in july so if i loose two 2lbs a day due to excercise and only eating veggies tht are low calorie. i can be 141 by aug 1 and then 2days left so 4more llbs off. i will be 137. whic  then i will only be 7lbs away from my goal and if im only 7lbs away by tht date i will be happy tht ive gone tht far. I swear to God i will be so fucking happy. I know this shit looks impossible but its all i have. I go to work everday to a job i hate look in a mirror at a girl i hate even more. Im tired of being jealous of the skinny bitches for once they will be jealous of me. enough sadness. On another note i found some amazing ana websites their ppretty awesome. I dont see what the hell is wrong with ppl we should have more sites. I hate the fact ppl try to close them down. who the fuck are they. ppl have freedom of speech so shove tht shit.whatever. ugh. So im excited. Im ready this time im totally fucking ready. Im going to post twice a day just to keep my mind off food.:) I love you guys. I love u ana/mia. Forever yours. <3

DAY ONE OF THE ROAD TO BADASS PERFECTION

so im starting my fast today after procrastinating.
This morning i wasnt really hungry which to me was totally upsetting because i wanted to feel it. The lovely feeling of being hungry and wanting to feel it but knowing if i dont then im beating it.
So i drank some coffee with splenda and excercised alot.
I did 700crunches 100 leg lifts and i streched.
Im going to take my nephew for a stroll in the park for a hour or so. so that should take my leg work out.
I always think im not doing enough excercises.
I am especially sticking with this fast because my bf is now enrolled in a gym!!! OMG lol
And i want to be him. I dont want to be the fat guy with the sexy skinny guy. ya know
And our 2year anniversary is JUNE 14 and his birthday is JUNE 7.
Who wants to fuck a fat girl for their birthday??? no one wants to
So My goal is to lose as much weight as possible before JUNE 7 and then lose some more before JUNE14.
I want to get into a bikinni I have NEVER worn a bikinni
Thats fuckin saying something
God thats sad. lol
So im going to pick out the cutest bikini ever to wear to the pool <3
So far my routine for everyday is to wake up immediately turn on my youtube video thinspiration list gets me amp for the day
Make some coffee and grab one of my 4 bottles of cold water from the fridge drink all the water and sit down and watch my motivation vids drink m cofee and then excercise my ass off.
then go for a run come home take a cold bath.sleep. and then more coffee. coffee all day
I figure if i dont eat and excercise everyday i should be able to loose 3lbs a day. and today is the 16 i have 15 days left in may. and then 6days till the june 7
so thats 21 days. 21 times 3=63 so ill be 140 then.:)
but then shit i want to be 120
so then 6 days after the 7th of june theres june 14 and so 6times 3=18
ill be 122 then. :)
i will be so happy as soon as i accomplish this. Im excited. :) <3 <3 <3
ANA keep me strong.

the start of losing the "fat fuck" title

Honestly, Iv had the hardest fucking time trying to get on a fast.Alot of shit has happened in my life lately hence me not posting for a while. I moved out of my parents house. YAY! Im in my own two bedroom apt. Its pretty nice not alot of furniture but it will do. So now that ive moved out doing my fast and such should be easier. In a way yea it is. But ive been so fucking bored without my internet that i went to drastic measures (drastic measures meaning the forbidden word "food") So currently I am a fat fuck. :( FML. Anywho, watched a shit load of thinspo videos, thought alot, talked to my bf who again was being a bit of an ass and started planning my thin journey all over again. I think i am doing this partially because i want to prove my bf wrong. I dont think that he thinks i can lose weight i think he thinks ill be a fat bitch forever. I think he thinks he is better looking than me which pisses me the fuck off to no return. He is overweight but thinks hes hot shit and didnt think he was hot shit till i came along filling up his so easily blown up head. (note: I am a fucking idiot for that)And then it his bitch of a friend shes too fucking friendly with him its like she wants to suck his dick. idk but yea im out to beat her weight too. Its like i know im pretty im just stuck in this fucking fat suit. (cries for a moment) Like underneath all of this fat and shit there is a skinny girl somewhere I swear to fucking god.. And the day i find her is the day i will forever be happy. So...... im set out to prove his ass wrong and his bitch of a friend wrong and a whole lot of other bitches who think theryre hot shit just because their skinny (yet still fucking ugly) wrong. Im sick of being a cow too. So, tonight im going around my house and first throwing out all fatty foods. Secondly, Im going to write little notes to myself on sticky notes and stick them to my wall. I wish I had a printer because i would like to put some thinspo pics up but i think i have some magazines. So yea. So i fucked up today and threw everything back up. I was happy afterwards. :) idk what it is about feeling all that nasty ____ leave my body. Its self empowering. So, Im excited about tommorow. I have to work but no food shall touch my lips. I swear. Love you anna forever yours

The first steps to perfection

I woke from a nap and saw my reflection in the mirror. I have such a pretty face I thought but what the fuck is all that fat under my clothes. Disgusting and totally fucking revolting. I havent fasted in a long time and look at where it has taken me. Ha absolutely down the shitter. Summer is around the corner im tired of looking like the fat cow with a tshirt on. I am now striving for perfection. Anna calls my name and i answer yes to thin and not to fat fuck. Who the hell wants to date a fat bitch?? Being totally honest if i was a boy and i had the choice between fat bitch and skinny girl I think i would go for the skinny one. Ha no i dont think i know i would. Lol. lets be honest no one wants to be the fat girl barely fitting into clothes. So here i go on my journey towards perfection care to join me? ANNA's path to perfection is thin & narrow. Forever yours anna-Ellie